We see these highlight reels portrayed that are quick glimpses into people’s lives and it’s never quite the full story. My intention is to share my journey with both honesty and vulnerability and the understanding that life is beautiful and hard and both can be true at the same time. 

I lowkey, high key had a slight crash out this last week and I was sitting in a deep sadness. I hate it. I’ve been missing the her that was in love with life. She had a vision and a plan, locked in on a healthy rhythm she’d created. Early mornings on the weight floor or Pilates reformer with my cousin, and evenings training in the ring or riding with my people. Lately I haven’t recognized myself. Watching my hair fall out, I’ve cried more times than I can count. Feeling low energy, each day has been a struggle.

I’m grateful for the ones who’ve been there with me to pull me up and push me forward, encouraging me to do the simple things that are healthy right now. Like getting in the sunshine. And reminding me who I am. 🫶🏽

I can continue to focus on these circumstances and the grief it’s brought. Yet faith is trusting God even without understanding the outcome. One thing is for certain. Time is our greatest measure and yet once it’s spent, we don’t get it back. There’s been so many lessons and I can’t wait to get on the other side of this so I can get back to the work I love and showing up for my people and community. But for now, I’m sitting with Romans 5:3. Suffering produces perseverance. Perseverance builds character. And character fosters hope. I’m securing this lace front wig and in this fight one day at a time, rebuilding my foundation, and seeking peace. 

Labs. Oncologist visit. Herceptin [trastuzumab]. Paclitaxel. Round 5 of 12 this wk. Why not see how far we can go with this extraordinary opportunity of this gift of life? You’re stronger and more resilient than you think. I love y’all. 🩷🫶🏽